All of my computer files are gone.
This is not a poem, or my usual thoughts to 70’s music on an afternoon drive. My computer died and the files are gone.
The main lesson here is that my usual way of dealing with technology, which is not dealing with technology, is not a good idea (apparently I needed a catastrophic incident to actually understand this). After running through the sequence of disbelief, anger, remorse, and sorrow upon learning that all of my work of the past 6 years is gone, I am left with an existential lesson of impermanence.
I am left wondering, so what?
My work for my clients can (mostly) be recreated. My writing, for the blog and otherwise, can also be recreated if not exactly as it was, in a new and maybe even a better way. The writing is not for posterity after all, it is for the experience, for the visual pairing of photos with words; the release of creativity set free into the world.
Photos that my son took in Cambodia, in Nova Scotia, Canada, Pennsylvania, Arizona, California, are all gone. Those photos can’t be recreated exactly, but again, the lesson of all that is fluidly impermanent rattles our reality.
So I am forced to look at this dilemma through philosophical eyes:
Everyone makes mistakes and all is temporary after all.
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I like your perspective on this, Sylvia. I would be very angry!! All of my stuff is backed up on Dropbox and a small external hard drive here. Gotta start doing daily backups, it’s simple.
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Good advice John.
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So sorry to hear! I back up everything from both my computers, the work one and this one that I use for personal stuff. I bought a portable hard drive and every 2 weeks I run a backup. We can’t trust to keep our data in one device only.
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Great thinking Elizabeth!
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I have been there. There are recovery programs out there that you can run to try to get some back and if it is a hard drive failure where your computer will not start, you could also remount the hard drive in a case and use it like a portable drive thru USB to try to get files back onto a new computer. Both of these worked for me with some success. Good luck. Allan
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My husband has been working on it since it happened, but it doesn’t seem like this story will have a happy ending. That’s why I’ve just accepted the worst case scenario.
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Oh no! And yet your acceptance of it is inspiring. I can see you at your new computer already, with inspirational sparks of genius flowing. Blessings.
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thank you!
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Doesn’t sound fun at all. 😦 You’ve got a good perspective on it though. All is just temporary anyhow.
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exactly 🙂
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How awful, I hope you’ll be able to recover some of your files. I admire your attitude about it all.
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Not many options, in the end it’s the only attitude that makes sense!
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oh boy – hard lesson!
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very hard… never to old to learn lessons, even those we should have learned years ago!
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Oh, ouch! Impressive comeback however. Choosing to see the impermance of life and how we are NOT our things is a big step. I can almost see how in a way, it might be freeing. Lightening life’s baggage. I think I’ll go back up my files now. 😉
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Ha! Good idea! 🙂
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You and me both. I was able to retrieve all but photos also. Lesson learned (I hope).
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That has occurred to me…have I really learned? Let’s hope so. We’ll see.
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Oh I’m so sorry to hear this! We all think – I’ll back that up Tomorrow – and then the computer dies!
As you say though, there is nothing to be done except accept it.
Life is an experience and will be stored in your memory. In this respect, philosophy wins! 🙂
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yes 🙂
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Take the computer in to a place that can retrieve the data. Then learn how to backup your files each week to external hard drives. I use beyond compare. I hear of sad stories like yours often as I do tech support.
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We were quoted 3,900 to retrieve the files. And then there is no guarantee of what exactly will be restored. I am choosing to forego since I can’t afford that right now.
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If there was no smoke from a short the data will most likely be on the hard drive. That is too much just to read a hard drive. Ask someplace else.
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Something likes this really is the pits. After it happened to me more than once, I purchased a seperate hard drive where I keep the files I don’t want to lose.
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Good idea.
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I admire your acceptance. I had the same thing happen years back and after some moments of grief it was like, oh well, back to the drawing board. Always a shame about the precious family photos though. Now I back up all my important stuff on USB keys in case the laptop or phone goes again. If you can ask around for a better price to have someone check the drive, you may be able to retrieve at least some files. Good luck, and stay creative X
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thank you for your words of encouragement 🙂 good to know it happens to the best of us!
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Very sorry for your loss. You so generously sharing so much of you
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Fat fingers, tiny keyboard. Feel free to delete.
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I get you…. 🙂 no worries and thank you
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Very sorry for your loss. You so generously shared so much of those files, they will never really be gone.
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Yes to temporary, existential, impermanence…but darn darn darn.
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Right! 🙂
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You are being so great but I still feel for you.
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Thank you!
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So sad. Do remember to back up every file next time, or who knows the computer may go off again😁
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We’ll see how the lesson is learned. 🙂
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Sorry for the loss of your computer files. It happens, unfortunately.
It says so much about the impermanence of the digital age. We love the convenience it affords. Yet, the most perishable part is when its memory fails and we loose everything we’ve tried to preserve … or the blasted thing doesn’t start. Had personal experience in that regard. Fortunately I had performed an extensive backup days before.
When you hadn’t written for a few days, I thought may be “Sylvia must be out collecting new memories.” In many ways, you were … plus trying to save a lot of lost memories. Perhaps, you can encourage your son to write a few memories of his travels. In Cambodia, I suppose he traveled to Angkor Watt. I’ve been there once before, in my previous life in the military, but far from Angkor Watt.
I do hope you’re able to recover some of the lost photos.
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Isn’t that interesting how we understand the rhythms of people we know electronically? I wonder also what’s “happened” to people when they don’t post the way they normally do. I find this concept interesting.
I would love for my son to write about his experience, alas he is not “into” writing. I do hope that we can recover the files one way or another. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me.
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Very sorry about that. Now, if you have a PC, normally what dies is the motherboard. Happened to me once. The hard drive is a separate part, that can be removed, opening the computer. And there are simple interfaces that can reconnect your hard drive to another computer. I did it successfully. If you don’t feel comfortable opening up the computer, take it to any shop, I would say there’s a 70% chance you can retrieve most of your files.
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I have heard extensively from my husband, “if I had a pc”…which I don’t, I work on a Mac because I’m a graphic designer and that’s what my industry uses. Sigh. We were quoted a rather high price to retrieve the files. Last I checked, my husband was still investigating our options. Thank you for your advice.
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Don’t mention it. I did switch to PC to “Full Apple” from Mac (several) , Iphone, and Ipad and I don’t regret it. PC’s are just too damn slow. BUT, the hard drive is easy to retrieve… Well. Think about the value of your files. And get 2 other quotes. 😉 You never know
Take care.
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This is the most positive outlook I have ever heard from someone who lost all of their files. You seem like a very calm and mindful person.
Sorry for your loss.
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That’s such a nice compliment and I would love to tell you that I’m very calm and mindful. I don’t think I’m either of those two things. However, there was and is nothing I could do to change that situation. And, it was my own fault, I could blame no one. So I just accepted it. I don’t think of it as mindful as much as I think my mr. Magoo personality keeps driving over bridges and other bridges appear in order to continue driving.
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Been mindful can also be a source dignity
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Very true.
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